< mostly just stupid. | posted at 10:56 am on May 16, 2005 >
last friday i took a day off, because andrew got back in the country on the thursday before. anyway so we had breakfast in the morning and then he had to go to work because he had to meet someone to do some urgent stuff for them. so i wandered home around 12, napped for a bit, thought about all the productive things i could do that day, and promptly did none of them. well, i got my boots resoled, if that counts. but i don't think it does.
it made me feel so very unproductive and so very pathetic.
then on sunday i had a whole night to do stuff, write something, design something, stuff for portfolio, or something creatively constructive. but i ended up watching the third lord of the rings with my flatmate.
i might have a house-sitting gig for when my lease runs out in july. my friend's parents have moved to the middle east for work for two years, and so i will either a) bunk with her in her big family home or b) house-sit the place if she goes travelling (it's really up to her). so that will be good. it's a little further from everywhere than where i am now, but a reduction of rent from $167.50 per week to, er, zero, which is a helluva reduction.
magazines are back. There seems to be a sliiiight error in an insert, which is partly my fault but mostly someone else's, which i think someone (hopefully not me) will cop flak for. then there is a sliiiightly ugly picture of someone that i will probably cop flak for. but i'll plead integrity. we don't airbrush! (ok, we do, and we should've, but fuck) we have integrity! we are a REAL magazine! ugh.
all these leaves kind of a bad taste in my mouth. so i will endeavour to forget about it and feel better by pursuing other things.
guh.
yuck, yuck.
god i feel terrible today. lately, rather. i don't know what it is, but it's shit. i just feel useless and stupid. mostly just stupid. and like i can't even do anything that anyone would find interesting anymore. even this entry is boring as hell.