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< sit and listen.. sit and listen... | posted at 10:18 pm on July 28, 2003 > today i had my first class of semester two, year two. entering the second half of my degree. in less than a year and half (in theory) i will no longer be a student, and after seventeen years (longer if you count preschool) of education, i will be out and about in the real world.not that i'm not yet out and about, but i'll, er, lose my concession and have to start paying bank fees. anyway i was talking about my class. so, the sixpm to ninepm class of film & video drama. the night class. 'let's go around the room, say your name, how much experience you've had with film and tv, what your degree is, why you're doing this subject...' i feel, already, somewhat nervous about saying my name etc, as i just, y'know, get nervous. however, when three-quarters of the class have professed their names, the fact that they're doing some sort of postgraduate degree and that they've had three years experience in this, and two years experience in that, when they decided to move into whatever, i am positively ashamed. 'er, i'm in my second year of the bachelor's degree, um, i'm doing this subject because i want to extend my knowledge as i haven't had all that much experience because i came into this degree straight out of school...' i am one of three undergraduate students in a class of 20+ members. right. well. i guess, er, i could learn more from them. BUT I WANT MY FRIENDS! i move from resolving to drop the class to resolving to take the class, as i feel stimulated for the first time in about six weeks - oh, talk of expressionism and naturalism and realism again, how i've missed you, how i've missed mental exercise! - i resolve to be strong, i resolve to do fucking well, and i resolve to enjoy myself and learn and gain what they call 'cinematic knowledge' by reading more and doing more and watching more. yes! i will be successful! and i don't have to do any of those digital camera / avid editing / lighting workshops 'cause ha ha sucked in postgrad students... i've already done them! tomorrow will be my first day not at work since february.. god bless university and flexible employers. more cinematic analysis - this is going to be good, i feel it... *cough* but i'll be hell busy and stressed *cough* those last five |