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< i never worry, now that is a lie | posted at 10:12 pm on November 28, 2003 > the countdown begins: five more sleeps before the month-long hiatus (however however will you cope?)today there was a fire drill and i had to evacuate our side of the building. got many laughs at 'you're the fire warden? how'd you get suckered into that?' etc, etc. tomorrow is my friend's housecooling. i just got home from having coffee and dinner with friends, to which i copped the customary 'andy's going to be there!' oohing and aahhing, then a subsequent 'oh, but old acquaintance will be there too! which one will it be?', not to mention a third past encounter's name. i let it all pass. water off a duck's back. i'm sick of feeling like a slut, and i know that their jibes are friendly and that they don't think i am one, either. after all, it's been a relatively dry spell... oh and then they started giving me joking warnings about ross, who i have signed up to fill in for a few days of the hols - just to answer phones - about how i'll come back and ross will have stolen my job. they point out (rightly) that i came in, was the new girl, and shunted two other employees. heh. yeah. then i started to get worried. friend goes 'ross sucks some arse' and he does! and he knows it! and now i'm worried. joking thoughts of sabotaging him, making him look bad. heh. i'm just kidding, of course. my job is so secure, a bank robber couldn't get to it (badoomshhhh). no, seriously. my job is terrifically secure. which is good, and bad, in the sense that i can generally do a lot of shit and get away with it (teehee). but all in all, they can't do without me. i think i've said this before. hmm. actually that reminds me, a director of the company had a two hour long coffee with me, a few days ago. and as i was talking to this incredibly remarkable guy, i felt so lucky. here is my boss's boss, and he is telling me that i am going to go far, that i'm so intelligent, etc, and that he is only interested in keeping his employees happy, because he believes that is the key to a good workplace. and i can tell him anything - ANYTHING - and it will be confidential. and i believe him (except all his compliments, i believe that that may possibly stem from his knowing that employees need to be happy, and that feeding my ego makes me happy. that would be very smart of him, which i wouldn't be surprised about, as he is very smart). anyway. i began to feel, however, antisocial, when i realised that i'd turned down a) premiere tix to the new russell cr*we film on wednesday night, b) walkl*y award tix on thursday night, and c) didn't turn up to a crappy 'video of the y*ar' festival tonight (which i really should have, considering i was the only one invited from work, and it's about keeping up the relationship blah blah blah. 'twasn't like i felt i was too cool for these events, but just lazy. and i regretted it all later. i really should have gone, to at least a) and b), since they would have been fun. and now i've resolved to take up invitations. for, you know, i would have fun. i just have to remember that before i get lazy. but anyway. i'll be out of the country for all the december festivities anyway - which i am happy about. too much cheer and joy and happiness in the festive season. it strikes me as hypocritical. off to finish my book (perfume, patrick suskind) and perhaps start on another (bought two today: when the stress falls (collection of essays by susan sontag) and jack kerouac's on the road). i guess, unlike the other resolutions i made earlier, i have at least kept one of them - reading more books. i'm reading at a rate of about one a week. i'll update on sunday, possibly with but probably without any proper news. on the other hand, it might be nice to get a little bit before i leave on wednesday... those last five |