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< somersault | posted at 10:42 pm on July 04, 2004 > Good morning.So yesterday was Friend A's 21st... which somehow ended up (I say somehow because I am still not quite sure how - possibly had something to do with alcohol) with Friend A's tongue down my throat. Background: this has happened before, with disastrous consequences, a very long, boring and dodgy story... Possibly could have been slightly in revenge as my usual casual pash friend was not pashing me but some other ugly girl. Which actually, I wasn't that miffed about, just toey perhaps... Or maybe I'm just the type of girl who turns to pathological sexual encounters with anyone who offers to make myself feel better. ie. a slut. This could well be the case... I'm pretty sure that's it. Anyway it has made me the butt of all jokes right now. I feel disgusting. I can't believe that happened. Self-disgust at an all time high. It's strange. It must seem like I like everyone but I hate everyone at the same time. I don't understand myself. I think I just have to take it all at face value and nothing else, or I will drown in insecurities and confusion. But I am a slut. those last five |