< i'm not leaving till you're leaving | posted at 10:11 pm on September 03, 2003 >

1. cosmo hot list emailed workmate and the whole ordeal was particularly hilarious especially as on the website i found my friend's ex-boyfriend and i rang her at work and we had a laugh.
2. i'm feeling like shit at work and useless otherwise and need to find creative stimulation again but know because i am lazy as aforementioned this should all dissolve in about a week. in the meantime i've volunteered to edit the student film publication but i don't know if i'll be allowed despite the fact that i'm sure i'd be the most qualified. and i'd really enjoy it, too.
3. deadline this month has been utterly painful, both physically and emotionally, i left work and cried today, i think david knew i was upset, not because of anything in particular... 4. ... but should I really have this type of work stress at my age? prompts me to wonder whether or not I should just quit and concentrate on 'punching cones and practising faces in the mirror' which is what normal 18 year olds do
5. but no because i'm narcissistic and need to feel superior..
6. my back hurts, like i said last month, coincidences of four week cycles
7. finished reading the rules of attraction by bret easton ellis and am feeling suitably depressed 8. have large bruise on my arm
9. now am reading morvern callar by alan warner not helping the depression
10. got new phone it's colour and i play 'bounce' and listen to the radio on the train and can fit more than 15 messages in my inbox which is fun
11. generally feel like keeling over and dying

those last five
- - June 13, 2008
hidden - August 14, 2006
it's not me, it's you - January 30, 2006
boring. Sorry. not really. - December 22, 2005
twenty-one - December 09, 2005