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< want to be alone | posted at 9:47 pm on April 14, 2004 > Sitting in uni scanning... it's quite peaceful, happy, etc. lets you think.came home today and flatmate gave me flowers from justin and a letter, saying he was sorry, that he was going to tell me that it was him that was the Crazy Stalker From Hell when he left for america at the end of the month, that he knows it was wrong. i still don't think he quite realises the extent of the freakiness though. and just QUITE how crazy the whole thing was. Really. anyway. so i don't know what to do, which means i'm happy sitting here underground in the photo lab out of mobile reception. reminds me of when i found out my hsc results and how i didn't want to talk to anyone, i was happy i was working in a blissful non-mobile-reception zone. everyone at work is in a shit mood, and yes that includes me. a workmate drove me to central station after work today and we had a good old bitch. god. i just wish i had some more creative stimulation. i'm so close to leaving - well, i would be close to leaving was i not needing the money so damn bad. i hate that feeling. and then i was thinking today - ok, you don't enjoy your life. so take control, either get to love what you're doing now (unlikely), or start doing what you love. the problem here is, i don't know what i love. and it sucks. so much sucks right now. those last five |