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< a pig in a cage on antibiotics | posted at 12:59 am on May 16, 2004 > things i have done in the past week:
1. bought a digital camera yesterday two workmates were talking about how musicians kill themselves at 27, i said 'does this mean i have to wait another eight years?' one said no, since i wasn't a musician, the other said 'you'll go before then. your star shines too bright, like a roman candle or a catherine wheel. you'll never make it.' i'm going to take it as a compliment... but kind of content yet disturbed with the knowledge that somewhere inside i knew it was true... not that my star shines too bright, but that i'd never make it. ok, that's not meant to sound as self-pityish or as pathetic and attention-seeking as it did, i don't know, i don't see anything wrong with taking your own life. maybe just forget this part, it's really not sounding right. i heart my new digital camera. i know i have to stop buying things. but why? they're so pretty! i'm a material girl, in a material world. tonight ross and i yelled along to the moulin rouge soundtrack as he drove me home, on track 10 i was nicole and he was ewan, tomorrow we're going to swap places. those last five |